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06 August 2007 @ 07:06 pm
Ali.... I can't believe I ever trusted that fucker. He thought it would be a god idea to have Sen gang raped. Repeatedly. But to worry. He's dead. I sold him out to the Italians and they killed him.

Sen. I'm sorry.
06 August 2007 @ 07:02 pm
God, I don't even have the words to describe what I'm feeling right now. Sen. He is.... Everything to me. He is my world. Heh. I've noticed that everytime he gets off he starts speaking in japanese. Unfortunately it's none of the word I know. BUt it's sexy all the same.
I love him so completely. I feel like I'm brusting at the seems. Everytime he comes near me I get butterflies. Alright, I'm gonna end al the sappy stuff there.
01 August 2007 @ 11:54 pm
We got a new warden today. Can't remember his name. But he's japanese. Heh. Before you know it, the prisons gonna full of them. Sen got me a CD player for my birthday. And I learned that A year today is when Sen came to the UGH. I showed Sen my new tattoo. He seemed to like it.
01 August 2007 @ 11:27 pm
I couldn't shake what Norman had said to me. "Have you ever tasted Sen's sperm?" It really bothered me that Norman tasted it before me. So Tonight, after I confessed to Sen I loved him, I gave him head. And we made love. We didn't fuck. We made love. It was unlike anything I;ve ever done before.

PS, Sen also confessed his love for me.
01 August 2007 @ 11:17 pm
Something strange, yet frighteningly wonderful has happened. I met someone and before I realized I fell in love. We've been together for almost a year. This preson is so much better than Monica ever was.
This person tries their best to understand me.
This person is beautiful.
This person is male.
Who would have ever thought that I would fall in love with another guy?
The other inmates just think he's my bitch. That I just fuck him for release. But it's more than that. He is my sun in this forsaken place. I love falling asleep to the sound of his sleeping breath.
I love listening to his voice.
I love being in his presence and when I'm not I feel empty and wish I were.
He's more than just my bitch. He's my lover. He's my boyfriend. He's my sun.
01 August 2007 @ 10:56 pm
Well, since I O.Ded I've been put into a rehab program. Like I need it. I'm not addicted I just was at a very low time in my life. i didn't know what else to do. Anyway, they said they wanted me to keep a journal. Heh. The joke's on them. I'm already keeping one. This one. Though no one knows about it and will never see it. I usually write in here when no one else is around. Or after Sen has fallen alseep and I write it by the booklight I ordered. So I'm here in rehab for a month and for some reason all I can think about is Sen.
01 August 2007 @ 10:12 pm
it's been two weeks. I got myself landed in the Villa. I can't remember why. Oh right! I kicked the shit outta Norman and Sen decided to try to kick my ass. Which got him sent to the Villa too. Heh. I sent him a finger with his fries. I'm not quite sure why. Oh well.
Anyway, shortly after I got out I found Norman and Sen have been fucking. Which pisses me off beyond belief. But I think I handled it pretty well.
I also divorced Monica today. Singed the papers and everything. Turns out that Sonny wasn't mine. Which really sucks. I mean, as much as I hate Monica. I kind of liked the idea of being a father. And now I doubt that will ever happen. I can't this anymore. Any of it. It's all I can't It's just too much. I gotta do something. I gotta do something to take the pressure off. To end it.
01 August 2007 @ 10:09 pm
Sen confessed to me yesterday that he really didn't need my protection. That he just wanted my dick. So I gave it him. I raped him at least 5 times. But if he wants my dick, I'm not one to deny him of it. I would have fucked him more but that damned Norman called the guards on me. They took Sen to the infirmary. I slept in his bunk last night. When the guards woke me up they told me that they needed to search my cell. But I didn't care about that. I really felt bad. I just, sometimes my temper gets the better of me and I don't realize how bad my reactions are until after. He's got some internal bleeding and what not. He'll be in the infirmary for a while.
01 August 2007 @ 06:14 pm
Well, Sen certainly was surprised to see Cannon. Though I think Cannon was more surprised when fought back and stabbed him in the eye with my cross. It surprised me too. I had to call for the guards to come and break up the fight so Cannon didn't kill Sen. As soon as the guards got Cannon to let him go, Sen came running over to me and kissed me. He said something about taking care the peeping tom and asked me to come back to him.
01 August 2007 @ 02:11 am
I fucking hate that guy!!! He had the nerve to call me a Homo! And that was after he decided to work with Norman! Heh. Not to worry. He'll be in for a surprise when he discovers Cannon is his new cellmate.